Before you read what I write. Read who I am.

Originally from Alberta and in the last number of years having been living in Vancouver, British Columbia. We are now living in Woolwich, London where we inhabit a wonderful little 2 floor flat in the Royal Arsenal. The family has grown over the years from being just my wife and I to the family of four we are now. My work has brought us to London for the next two years where for the first time in ages we will live in the same house for more than a birthday. The experience is written below from then till now. With a view of the Thames from our windows and boat ride to work the new life begins.

30 Aug 2007

Loss of control...

My child is infuriating. Why? Because he is no longer under my control. He is a follower who will obey the things I ask of him and I can always overpower him but he is also his own person able to tell us the things he likes and dislikes. He is able to assert himself both physically and verbally and he knows how to both woo and frustrate his parents. He also hits and it drives me nuts, I want to grab him and pull him away and tell him loudly he's doing things wrong and sometimes, just sometimes, when he hits *ME* I want to whack him.

The obvious issue here is that I can not do things like that. I can not hit my child, I can not be forceful over a child I want to instill gentle qualities in and I can not control him. Instead I know that I now have the arduous task of guiding him. I only say arduous because it's hard for me or Kate to do, it's hard to take a person with raging emotions and ideas that move more rapidly than they are explained. A person who can reduce to screaming and tears and bashing his head over the fact that you are offering him EXACTLY what he wants. It's hard to take that person and guide them to all the emotions and values that you want them to have while controlling all of the negative values you do not want them to be party to in yourself.

I think that in my mind I would relate it to trying to be a bar star while stopping a friend from drinking. It's something that you just can not do and be successful at it.

What does this mean to me? What does this mean for Kate? More importantly what does this mean for our dealings with Sebastian? I think it means that the qualities we are shooting to instill - completely relies on us to model and consistently display the qualities ourselves. This is a lot like being a good manager or lead. You need to model what you would want your team to look like.

This is a problem. Both of us are ruled by our emotions in so many ways.... we are going to have to change ourselves to change our son. I thought I would have seen this... those parents. Y'know the ones who seems almost hoity toity and are really "clean" people, not swearing in conversation (even without their kids around), modeling clean lives are the ones who I almost think have the kids who have those high quality values. But I could be wrong... It could be that those people really are just jerks and their kids are only good because they beat them... I'll never really know. In the end, I know that I need to make changes in me to adjust to a better work environment. Things like swearing in conversation. With luck those changes in me will start to help me mold Sebastian as well.

If you read this you really should read what my wife Kate goes through. She stays at home with Sebastian. Something that I have stated I would love to do but secretly know that I would do a horrible job by comparison. She deals with his sweetness and his unholy jerkiness day in and day out and not only tries to model good behavior and demeanor but, much to her own discredit, does a really really good job at it.

28 Aug 2007

Advancements

Today my second server became a link aggregated 2GB/s network unit. It joins the first and is now the second server in EA using this connection type. So far my users are only achieving 70mb/s on the primary unit so I think they have some overhead.

RAM on the other hand might need to be increased as now that they can use so many other things [ Like streaming video ] they are using a lot more RAM on the unit. 3GBs out of 4 were being used most of today so I may have to order more.

I asked today for a new training class from both the infrastructure manager and from the COO of my studio. I figure that two chances are better than one. The only problem with this is that I *JUST* realized the course is in Calgary and NOT Vancouver as I originally stated. BLARG!

So now I either have to see if I can be sent to Calgary for 5 days or wait about until Vancouver decides to host the class. [ Which won't be until next year now ]

Well we'll see where I end up. ** I just talked to Kate and she doesn't want me going so close to her due date so I guess I wait till next quarter**

I also talked with my network guy today about the traffic that would occur if I added an Xgrid system to my work. Seems that it would be ok and if I can get the servers I want then he can even make them all 2GB/s to improve the connection speeds. Now I just need to see if he'll do it to a couple of users too.

I sometimes wonder if I am too demanding.

Monsterous issues.

It occurs to be me that I never wrapped up the post concerning the issues I was having with my Mac unit. So time to do that.

The problem: My server's authentication to Active Directory kept failing, making it very very hard for all of our users to connect / stay connected to the server. The end result was that people were constantly disconnecting and not happy what-so-ever. I was unhappy as I kept having to reconnect the server to AD every 12 hours. PITA.

The fix: Take the server off AD, turn it in to a Open Directory only server. Once this was done the server ran for 132hours without issue before I rebooted this morning for software updates.

The Lesson: screw windows.

So basically I do plan on taking cross-platform integration if possible through Apple, but that is another $2400 USD so I need someone to pay for it first.

27 Aug 2007

I will create a monster

So. I now have two, count em, two Apple Xserves at work. I'm shooting for another 3.

Why you might ask? Especially if you work with me.... The answer is simple. Solidify my position make myself invaluable and then threaten to quit and ask for a raise. MUHAHAHAAHAAA

No really, I am just anticipating that with Pro Tools 7.4 coming and supporting the ability to have nodes like Logic Pro does right now that we will need some processing power that can be stored in the server room and listed as mission critical.

I have recently created a small node farm for the Music Audio guys and they are loving having it. Infrastructure at EAC however deemed it NON mission critical due to the fact that it is running from desktop machines. No fail-over, no rack mount, no need to worry about it seems to be their view. Well now I am stepping this up a notch or two.



That's how I want to roll. It's really the only way to do it. Have them all be 8core 3.0Ghz machines with 4gb RAM each. An 80gb and a 500gb drive to do generates and like WHOA Robert is your mother's brother.

Now the only thing standing between me and it is..... Money. Well that and convincing Charles and Marcel. Those should be interesting sells too. However when you look at how pretty, functional and stylish the above is... you can't help wanting to purchase when you look at what I currently am working with...

4 G5's in a network closet is hardly how I would like to be supporting a group of audio specialists.

13 Aug 2007

Fantastic weekend

Sebastian and I played all weekend long. It was a hella amount of fun.

We hit the park, we played soccer, we played in the sandbox, we wrestled fooled around playing hide and seek and generally had a great time. It was the best feeling of 'dad' that I've sported in a while.

We went to the mall and hit the playpit and rather than sit on the sidelines I got in there and chased him around, directed him to go through and over and under and around stuff and made him scream with glee as I jumped out from behind things. It was a lot better than my usual sitting on the sidelines and waiting for him to tire out. Although I was tired out by the time Kate came back from the first store.

We hit up a photo booth and got our pictures taken and even got a good one out of it! Then ran about and kicked balls around the Old Navy store. I think a few of the Old Navy employees were less than thrilled about it. Who cares?

We watched (well me and Kate - Seb was asleep) Hot Fuzz on the weekend too. Man that was literally the best cop movie I have seen.... like..... ever. The 'surprise' ending of the movie made it even better. We also watched most of Snatch... I needed to see it again, it had been too long and I had forgotten so much of it. Most because Sebastian woke up right near the end and came to sleep with us.

66 Days until the new baby comes along! I am starting to get that going on a holiday excitement although I'm not too sure that my brain is fully informed of what is actually going on. Perhaps it's like those sunglasses in Hitchhikers Guide where everything goes black at the slightest glimmer of danger. I'm using some old internal defense mechanism to stop myself from seeing what's really going on...

Well, if new baby is even half as much fun as Sebastian is then it should be all worth it cuz man this kid not only has the crazy, but he IS the crazy.

Let's give em something to blog about...

Like construction! NON STOP! These people across from us have been rebuilding their house all day everyday and it's driving me nuts. They are out there till 9 or 10pm with circular saws and air nailers. They work on the weekends and somedays have gone until 1:30am! Like seriously.... SHUT THE FUCK UP! I finally registered a complaint tonight although I am so furious about them still working right now I want to call the cops too. The lack of respect for the people that they are about to live around is disgusting. How do they expect to not be hated by everyone around them when they've pulled this shit for a solid month now?

GAH!

6 Aug 2007

Why don't I post everyday?

Have you read this shit?!

On Saturday night I installed my new server and it went quite well until I said the magic words.... " that went wayyyy easier than I thought it would. Was it really that easy?" BAM! Screwed.

In case you didn't know... That = "Well at least it isn't raining" or the very popular "well at least it couldn't get any worse".

After that bomb.com there was about 4 hours of network troubleshooting with my infrastructure network guru and at least an hour and a half on the phone with apple. In the end we got it all figured out and the systems was running with a nice 2gb/s network configuration. Some throughput testing hit 952mbs/s which is twice as fast as anything else onsite. Sweetness.

So I reckon'd it all to be wrapped up at this point. I went to the beach today with Seb and got a call from the Oncall Tech asking me to take a look in to some stuff with the server.... After 9.5 hours of "looking in to it" a $700USD call to Apple and 5 hours with another of the infrastructure team we are still no closer to having the windows connection side of things working. Everything looks to be configured correctly but it will only try the authentication locally instead of heading upstream to the AD servers. It sucks. I feel really crappy about the whole thing. I wanted this to be a swift and seemless transition that had people singing my praises and thinking things like "hey that guy deserves more money". Instead I feel like I've let a lot of people down and that the powers that be are going to look at this with a "shouldn't have trusted him" sort of view. Which Sucks don't you know.

In the end I have to call Apple again tomorrow and spend even more time on the phone and deep in the server config to try and figure this out. With one Game 2 weeks from ship and one coming close to this needs to be fixed like tomorrow.

The stress from this had my ankle hurting like I had snapped the damn thing in two all day.

And hey, this doesn't even touch on how much I feel I let my family down today being gone all afternoon and night...

23 Jul 2007

100 Posts Achieved

Ok I have not updated my blog in a long long long long long long time... Why? I don't know, no time to do it or no urge to do it or what have you....

There has been lots going on as usual. There has been lots of work to do both at work and at home although lately I haven't been at home to do any work. I have been in at work late nights and such. I have missed out on the daily routine and delved down deep in to this barely awake zombie styled march of death. It's been funny but not like.. ha ha funny.

I erased the configuration of my server I had so painstakingly build in one swift movement and it pretty much nullified all the work I had done in those late nights all at once. Kinda sucked. To look at the bright side of things at least I now know how to do it even better and in theory it should take much less time to do it the second time.

Sebastian and I spent pretty much all of last weekend together doing this and that. We hung out with Corey and Corey's Mom (Susan) at the beach, we went to the park and we even let Kate go out to Harry Potter and Dinner while we did pizza and a movie at home.

Boss man (at work) has been getting the shaft from everyone and everywhere... All the people who should be relying on him as the lead of the tech department are circumventing him and coming to me instead. I could see this really pissing me off if I was him and as such... well he is really pissed off, and depressed. I can't believe how shallow the people around my studio are that they would just give up on someone simply because they are changing studios. I mean the MAIN freaking reason he is leaving is because of them in the first place. Really makes you want to walk around and give some *heads up / wake up* SLAPS.

Coworkdude is apparently going through his own mini hell when it comes to home. He is moving towards a breakup with his wife. It has been coming along for a while from what he's told me but I had no idea. Granted I don't listen much at work, with everything else that is going on my time for personal stuff is limited I think. That or I'm so put off by his constant singing ( if you're reading this I really mean it - STOP SINGING!!! It drives me batty) that I am just uninterested when it comes to talking.

Regardless, Coworkdude and I work well together it seems and the whole department has been doing well. Bossman is outta there on September 5th and our new lead starts on June 20th. We met him already and he seems like a good guy, even if he did wear a tie and sweater vest to the interview... All things considered he seems like a good manager with good skills both in the realm of boss and technician. He'll have to lighten up a little though to fit in to the culture of sloth and indolence.

Skate has gotten some kick ass reviews all around the globe. E3 and GameDev have been pretty happy with it. I know I am, I have it at my desk on a 360 and I play it every time I am waiting at my desk for things to happen. Need for speeds Pro Street on the other hand is more fun to play until the crash than to actually play... I'm not a driving fan at all but people say it's awesome.

I personally have had some stress over work lately and have been feeling that I might be in a little over my head. People are relying on me to get the new Audio server in seamlessly and have it work like 50x better than the old one but.... I'm not sure how to do it... yet. Trying to balance the time I need for it + the time I need to do my regular work (tickets) and the time I need to spend doing self training + the time I need to spend at home is extremely difficult and not really working right now.

And now... I am going to lay down some justice on the kids next door.

13 Jul 2007

and save my banjo you bastard!

So the last few weeks have been hellish at work.... there has been so much going on with both teams finaling and (as usual) audio woes. However, I am pleased that Apple replaced my Audio Server and we'll be getting a sparkling new Intel one. Lots of tickets coming in and I've been doing a bunch of work getting the test bed server up and running. When the new Intel Server comes in I will have a lot to do, getting the system setup and working the Samba config. It should be pretty interesting.

Luckily to take my (and all of our) minds of things we are going to go to folkfest at Jericho beach tomorrow. Which is going to rock ass. Utah Phillips is there and so are The Wailing Jennies. It's going to be great.

8 Jul 2007

Holy crap what a week.

So I was on call all last week and my Audio server at work was super unstable and useless. It kept on crashing and I had to be there to support it. Which meant that I was there most nights till 1am or so. Plus there was the emergency pager which kept on ringing getting me to do work for both studios at all hours. Talk about suck city.

So currently my almost dead blackberry is off and in the bottom of the fruit bowl. I have not signed in to work and they don't have access to my cell number. So I have been free to enjoy the weekend.

Speaking of the weekend... I played with Sebastian all day yesterday while Kate went to her Dad's and did laundry while he is away. Then after naps and lunch we went out to Kristi, Jeff and Imani's House to have dinner and play. It was great, I miss those guys. We have not seen enough of them lately for sure.

Sebastian went to sleep in 15mins for his nap and maybe 20 for Sleep last night so that was sweet.... no long drawn out battles or anything.

Today, Kate is doing more laundry plus going shopping for groceries so I think that I am on Sebastian duty again. Which is cool.

Loads of work to do tomorrow morning when I get in and I have a test server environment ready to go for configuration as well.

Tomorrow is also my 30th Birthday. Kate's Mom and Dad got me 2 Tickets to Folk Fest!!!!! yayayaayayaa!!!! OH and my Apple Server test is tomorrow morning.

So I should probably hit the work with Sebastian and get my book because I should have/be studying for that.

gah... I never get away.

Also I am cooking something up because I am nearing my 100th Post.

5 Jul 2007

Cursed Food Eater... right here.

I am. At least I'm pretty sure I am. OR I eat more than my share of packaged foods... I dunno. Either way... do you remember this??

I do... Vividly... now here it is again. The good people at CanGroFoods apparently CAN grow foods... however they just CAN't stop putting it in the can. It's just too good to stop!

So I pop the lid on my Peaches and Pear fruit cup and start chowing down but after a spoonful or two... I get the (not so creamy) topping.



Now as much as I like fruit... even I know not to eat the stalk.

So let's go up the "food" chain...

CanGroFoods => Del Monte => Texas Pacific Group

TPG is just a Global private Investment Firm that takes over everything... trying for JVC right now.

ugh.

Anyway seems another larger than life company has given me the shaft (or stalk as it were)

26 Jun 2007

Big Bird and Disco Snuffy

You watched it... you can't unwatch it!



Plus a blast from my childhood.



I really need to stay the heck off of youtube.

24 Jun 2007

Big Ups to Kate for the Original Pictures


Do androids dream humans? Do Humans dream technology?


Ok so officially I have become too invested with this whole server course. I have had nothing but Server implementation dreams since we got back from Seattle. I keep having this warm and fuzzy feelings when I awake from them too. That's usually followed by this feeling of wtf is wrong with me? I've felt this urge to go to work the last few days aswell. To check on it, to make sure everything is OK, to start implementing my changes... I mean really is my mind so devoid of 'normal' activity that the nerdiness has run it over?

I bet I was smiling in my sleep thinking about configuring Open Directory and Print services on systems.

I'm going to file this one in /users/shared/oddasfuck

22 Jun 2007

I'm Mostly naked right now

So I won't Video blog.

I just wanted to put in a little something about our trip back from USA today.

We got to the border and the guard was a little, well.... he was on his 1,000,000,000,000,000 car of the day I am sure and seemingly was checking everyone quite well in front of us. When we got up to the stand we handed over our passports and

He asked "where we came from?."

Seattle.

He asked "how long we were gone for."

I said what?

He repeated.

5 Days.

He asked "the total value of goods that we were bringing back."

I said What?

He repeated.

I said (as I grabbed some receipts) uh... we got some food worth $45 and some soap for about $10... and

he handed our stuff back and said "move on"

As we left Kate was laughing at me... At how dumb I had been playing with the guard. I said to Kate

"Well, I guess, the best way to play dumb. Is to be dumb."

Seattle

Well, I have done almost nothing but eat and sleep and train down here... Kate and Sebastian have been all over the place and done a lot. They've been to Pike place and the Zoo and the University Village and other stuff and don't want to go home because they have been having a ball!

I have also been having a (much nerdier) ball. I got to attend this Mac OS X Server course and it has been quite eye opening. I realize there is so much going on with our Mac server or rather... so much NOT going on with the server that we are losing out...

anyways class is starting so I am out.